It’s scary how much she loves you. She probably doesn’t know how this should make her feel. She doesn’t even know how to behave, and she wishes she doesn’t make it as hard for you as she does every time.
She is scared because she loves you, and she doesn’t want to lose you. She is scared because you may tire of her and her attitude. How to put these to words could be quite hard, but deep in her heart she hopes you understand. She hopes so dearly that you understand her, and most importantly understand her silence for that’s more of what she can give when she doesn’t know how else to express herself.
She can’t ask for patience from you anymore, because then she’d be selfish. She can’t ask for patience because then she’d feel like she’s taking too much advantage. To be patient with her is asking for too much because then she doesn’t know how long it will take for her to get a grip on this and deal with her emotions or her mood.
She could feel you are the best thing that has ever happened to her, she sees you and she’s happy. When she thinks about coming home to you it feels a lil bit scary but she is happy still.
She could fear she loves you too much, she could fear she won’t be enough. She could fear she wouldn’t want anymore of you and give up on what you both have built. She could fear you won’t be enough. Does she fear too much, or should she just worry instead? But isn’t that the same thing??